This moment

Wow! What an incredible week! If I told you everything that's happened, you'd think I was lying or crazy.....Really! It's been an incredibly fulfilling, scary, heartbreaking, heart BUILDING, pouring-into-the-lives-of-people-I-love, kind of week! And to sum it up, I got the perfect summation at a funeral yesterday of a dear friend's daughter. This woman was clearly beloved by the sobbing and grief displayed among those fortunate to know her. I did not have that pleasure but her own daughter stood up and read a letter she'd just found in a book her mom had sent her and it could not have been a more beautiful testimony of who her mom was in life. I asked her permission and am sharing this portion. It is not original and I could not find its author. If you know where it comes from, please feel free to comment.

Nothing is worth more than this day

This moment in time will stop being the present and turn into the past-another memory.

It is the blessing and the curse of life. It never stops or even breaks for us.

We can only try to be present in each moment that we are given

and truly LIVE in it because it will surely not last.

So today, kiss your mother, say hello to a stranger, say goodbye to a bad habit,

hold the door open for someone-do it today because today is all we have.

I am so utterly in love with this sentiment. It is the fuel my day is fed upon.

I am a simple yet deeply complex. loving but utterly selfish, straight forward but scared of my own truths, broken and beautiful child of God striving to do this life, seize each moment, with love, integrity and strength. And if I lay my head down at night without my failures poking at me like an unyielding bully, that's a good day. Most of the time I see more where I failed than succeeded and wonder where this crazy score card in my head came from.....but........but...............................

Sometimes, there are these breathtaking moments, of utter wonder, awe and deep seated peace and I bask in the truth that I am loved beyond imagination by the God who created me and I see people as shining vessels inviting that pouring in of self and I just can't imagine a better moment than right now. And then that moment become a precious memory. A perfect snapshot, as it moves further and further and further away.

This day is a perfect opportunity to create a moment like that or to just settle for what is familiar. My prayer is for the courage and strength to seize as many opportunities to take that new path of either my own creation or Divine leading that fills my life with meaningful moments. I love you all! Go have yourselves extraordinary days!!!